I had a Coco Chanel cake made and it tasted as good as it looked! Here are some pictures:
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| Happy birthday to me!! |
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| Here she is ;) |
"A girl should be two things, classy and fabulous-"Coco Chanel
Monday, 3 December 2012
Happy birthday to me!
On the 29 of November I turned 27! I know I dont look a day over 20, lol jokes but I had a lot of fun and my birthday was very special.
I had a Coco Chanel cake made and it tasted as good as it looked! Here are some pictures:
"A girl should be two things, classy and fabulous-"Coco Chanel
I had a Coco Chanel cake made and it tasted as good as it looked! Here are some pictures:
"A girl should be two things, classy and fabulous-"Coco Chanel
Friday, 5 October 2012
I'm young, single and I love to mingle!
Eita daar *fluit*!
This has been quite an eventful year for me, I have experienced things that have forced me to grow up faster than I would have liked to. This year I am turning 27 and God has been very good to me, he has blessed me with good health and strength to continue being the best mother I possibly can be for my son. I must say nothing gives more more joy than seeing how his face lights up when he sees me and how happy he is.
One major lesson that I have learnt the importance of putting yourself first and knowing your worth. As cliche as this sounds trust me when you master these principles, the world will be your oyster! For the past five years I have battled with this, I walked around with blinkers on the sides of face and wool over my eyes. I put everyone else and everything else before me, I made excuses, sacrifices and even lied to make someone else happy. You know when you want something desperately you do everything and anything to get it. Strange enough even though I believed that the end justifies the means, I always had this nagging feeling that there has got to be more to live than being a doormat and being someones submissive! I however knew that the more I try to create this "perfect" haven I deserved more than what I was getting.
We are often taught not to ignore that nagging, still small voice (ironic neh) that helps us make what to do whenever we are faced with difficult decisions to make! I ignored mine so many times because I kept telling my self the end justifies the means! Forced love, being told to change, living for someone else and now knowing my worth worth will never ever happen to me again. "Flying solo" after all these years is quite scary but the future if filled with much promise, the thought is scary and very exciting at the same time. I have started living for ME now, I am laughing more, crying less, I wear what I want to wear, I don't have to put up with being told I'm fat and ugly, I celebrate ME and I must tell you everyday I feel a step closer to being the person I want to be! It feels good! I love me and I love being me!!
Needless to say whenever God takes you out of a situation he does that for a reason, so ke who am I to argue with the man upstairs. Here's to the future!
This has been quite an eventful year for me, I have experienced things that have forced me to grow up faster than I would have liked to. This year I am turning 27 and God has been very good to me, he has blessed me with good health and strength to continue being the best mother I possibly can be for my son. I must say nothing gives more more joy than seeing how his face lights up when he sees me and how happy he is.
One major lesson that I have learnt the importance of putting yourself first and knowing your worth. As cliche as this sounds trust me when you master these principles, the world will be your oyster! For the past five years I have battled with this, I walked around with blinkers on the sides of face and wool over my eyes. I put everyone else and everything else before me, I made excuses, sacrifices and even lied to make someone else happy. You know when you want something desperately you do everything and anything to get it. Strange enough even though I believed that the end justifies the means, I always had this nagging feeling that there has got to be more to live than being a doormat and being someones submissive! I however knew that the more I try to create this "perfect" haven I deserved more than what I was getting.
We are often taught not to ignore that nagging, still small voice (ironic neh) that helps us make what to do whenever we are faced with difficult decisions to make! I ignored mine so many times because I kept telling my self the end justifies the means! Forced love, being told to change, living for someone else and now knowing my worth worth will never ever happen to me again. "Flying solo" after all these years is quite scary but the future if filled with much promise, the thought is scary and very exciting at the same time. I have started living for ME now, I am laughing more, crying less, I wear what I want to wear, I don't have to put up with being told I'm fat and ugly, I celebrate ME and I must tell you everyday I feel a step closer to being the person I want to be! It feels good! I love me and I love being me!!
Needless to say whenever God takes you out of a situation he does that for a reason, so ke who am I to argue with the man upstairs. Here's to the future!
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| loving life and its prospects |
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| I am a model in my world, lmao *dead* |
Monday, 17 September 2012
"big girls are made for cuddlin'"
It's been a minute! i have been a bit busy and winter just made me feel all dull and gloomy. I'm back now doing what what I do best, lol.
In the past five years I would say that I have gained quite a lot of weight, bear in mind I have never been a skinny girl. I have always had some junk in my trunk, lol, but I have gained a few pounds and two years ago I had my son so that also added on a couple of pounds.
There was once a time where I didnt even want to look at myself in the mirror, I hated everyting about my self. I still do get those days when I feel like the ugliest person in the world.What also makes things worse is when people always say "yhu awutyebe". I must admit that used to get me down but now I always have some quirky answer ready for them.
I have discovered that instead of wallowing is mysery I should just dress up in clothes that are going to make me look good and boost my confidence levels. I want people to see that you can be a bit bulky but look good at the same time. I dont go shopping all the time but when I do I buy clothes that will flatter my now extensive figure.
A friend of mine Qhamani took some pictures of the fuller and happier me at the beach today.
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| all of mwa! |
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| love me! |
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| hapiness! |
Friday, 22 June 2012
Vintage me!
Monday morning I was looking through my mom's wardrobe in an attempt to find something to wear and God must have been smiling down on me when I found this timeless leather skirt! the fit. cut and everything was just perfect! I wore it and everyone I saw on that day kept asking where I bought the skirt.
Here's some pics:
Here's some pics:
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| the skirt |
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| looking fresh in mamma's vintage leather skirt |
Monday, 11 June 2012
lip service!
We talking lips!
I have been told so many times that I have got nice lips! I always reply modestly that I look after my lips and I don't spare any expenses when it comes to buying lip gloss. I am also proud to announce that I have never ever had a fever blister in all my 26 years of existence, LOL!
My lip care tips:
1. don't lick your lips, that makes them crack
2. don't put any lip gloss or balm on your lips, shop around and see what works
3. after brushing your teeth, lightly brush your lips with a hot toothbrush to get rid of the scaly bits that often make lips look yucky.
4. girls always make sure that you always well nourished lips! nothing is more of a turn off than ladies with parched lips!
This is what I use for my lips
I have been told so many times that I have got nice lips! I always reply modestly that I look after my lips and I don't spare any expenses when it comes to buying lip gloss. I am also proud to announce that I have never ever had a fever blister in all my 26 years of existence, LOL!
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| all puckered up, lol |
1. don't lick your lips, that makes them crack
2. don't put any lip gloss or balm on your lips, shop around and see what works
3. after brushing your teeth, lightly brush your lips with a hot toothbrush to get rid of the scaly bits that often make lips look yucky.
4. girls always make sure that you always well nourished lips! nothing is more of a turn off than ladies with parched lips!
This is what I use for my lips
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| Woolies tinted gloss, my mom introduced me to this, it does the job! |
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| this I use to give my lips some colour, it also makes my lips look a bit "fuller" |
a virtuous woman....
On a spiritual tip this morning, mamelani...
Being a woman of substance is very hard nowadays. The word we live in is filled with so much darkness and moral decay. Despite that I strive to be the best woman I can be, I have faults and I have my moments of weakness but what consoles me is the fact that I know what the Lord wants me to be, he wants me to be a virtuous woman who can can withstand anything and everything.
I am a mother and in a committed relationship and whenever I am confronted with troubles that seem too much for me to bear, I remember my worth and my duty as a mother and a partner.
In Proverbs 31: 10-17 he tells us the kind of mothers and wives we should be.
Epilogue: The Wife of Noble Character
10 A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
I find solace in these words and I know that being this woman is going to take some work but I know that the Lord will mold and shape me into a virtuous woman whose worth will be recognised and appreciated by those I come into contact with.
Thursday, 19 April 2012
Greatest of all time...
My brother introduced me to Tupac's music, one of the greatest rappers that ever lived! Here's a lil sumtin sumtin about him.
Tupac Amaru Shakur was born on the East Harlem section of Manhattan in New York City. He was named after Túpac Amaru II, a Peruvian revolutionary who led an indigenous uprising against Spain and was subsequently executed. His mother, Afeni Shakur, and his father, Billy Garland, were active members of the Black Panther Party in New York in the late 1960s and early 1970s. It is believed that Pac's birthname was Lesane Parish Crooks. This name was supposedly entered on the birth certificate because Afeni feared her enemies would attack her son, and disguised his true identity using a different last name. She changed it later, following her separation from Garland and marriage to Mutulu Shakur.
2pac rapped about life in the hood, life as a black man in modern society, police brutality, friends, family and the like. He was not afraid to confront issues that many shied away from. He was also a poet and a writer, listed below are my favourite poems by 2pac:
I Cry
Sometimes when I'm alone
I cry,
Cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form
I cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confiding,
I would cry among my treasured friend,
But who do you know that stops that long,
To help another carry on.
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
Then to stop and see what makes one cry,
So painful and sad.
And sometimes...
I cry
And no one cares about why.
Untitled 1
Father forgive us for living
Why are all my homies stuck in prison?
Barely breathing, believing that this world is a prison
It's like a ghetto we can never leave
A broken rose giving bloom through the cracks of the concrete
So many things for us to see
Things to be
Our history so full of tragedy and misery
To all the homies who never made it home
The dead peers I shed tattooed tears for when I'm alone
Picture us inside a ghetto heaven
A place to rest finding peace through this land of stress
In my chest I feel pain come in sudden storms
A life full of rain in this game watch for land thorns
Our unborn never got to grow, never got to see what's next
In this world filled with countless threats
I beg God to find a way for our ghetto kids to breath
Show a sign make us all believe
Untitled 2
With all this extra stressing the question I wonder is after death
After my last breath
When will I finally get to rest from this oppression?
They punish the people that's asking questions
And those that possess steal from the ones without possessions
The message I stress
To make you stop study your lessons
Don't settle for less
Even the genius asks his questions
Be grateful for blessings
Don't ever change, keep your essense
The power is in the people and politics we address
Always do your best
Don't let the pressure make you panic
And when you get stranded and things don't go the way you planned it
Dreaming of riches in the position of making a difference
Politicians is hypocrites
They don't want to listen
If I'm insane it's the fame
I ain't about to change
It ain't nothing like the game
It's just me against the world
Liberty Needs Glasses
excuse me but lady liberty needs glasses
and so does mrs justice by her side
both the broads r blind as bats
stumbling thru the system
justice bumbed into mutulu and
trippin on geronimo pratt
but stepped right over oliver
and his crooked partner ronnie
justice stubbed her big toe on mandela
and liberty was misquoted by the indians
slavery was a learning phase
forgotten with out a verdict
while justice is on a rampage
4 endangered surviving black males
i mean really if anyone really valued life
and cared about the masses
theyd take em both 2 pen optical
and get 2 pair of glasses
In the Event of My Demise
In the event of my Demise
when my heart can beat no more
I Hope I Die For A Principle
or A Belief that I had Lived 4
I will die Before My Time
Because I feel the shadow's Depth
so much I wanted 2 accomplish
before I reached my Death
I have come 2 grips with the possibility
and wiped the last tear from My eyes
I Loved All who were Positive
In the event of my Demise
Tupac Amaru Shakur was born on the East Harlem section of Manhattan in New York City. He was named after Túpac Amaru II, a Peruvian revolutionary who led an indigenous uprising against Spain and was subsequently executed. His mother, Afeni Shakur, and his father, Billy Garland, were active members of the Black Panther Party in New York in the late 1960s and early 1970s. It is believed that Pac's birthname was Lesane Parish Crooks. This name was supposedly entered on the birth certificate because Afeni feared her enemies would attack her son, and disguised his true identity using a different last name. She changed it later, following her separation from Garland and marriage to Mutulu Shakur.
2pac rapped about life in the hood, life as a black man in modern society, police brutality, friends, family and the like. He was not afraid to confront issues that many shied away from. He was also a poet and a writer, listed below are my favourite poems by 2pac:
I Cry
Sometimes when I'm alone
I cry,
Cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form
I cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confiding,
I would cry among my treasured friend,
But who do you know that stops that long,
To help another carry on.
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
Then to stop and see what makes one cry,
So painful and sad.
And sometimes...
I cry
And no one cares about why.
Untitled 1
Father forgive us for living
Why are all my homies stuck in prison?
Barely breathing, believing that this world is a prison
It's like a ghetto we can never leave
A broken rose giving bloom through the cracks of the concrete
So many things for us to see
Things to be
Our history so full of tragedy and misery
To all the homies who never made it home
The dead peers I shed tattooed tears for when I'm alone
Picture us inside a ghetto heaven
A place to rest finding peace through this land of stress
In my chest I feel pain come in sudden storms
A life full of rain in this game watch for land thorns
Our unborn never got to grow, never got to see what's next
In this world filled with countless threats
I beg God to find a way for our ghetto kids to breath
Show a sign make us all believe
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| Tupac Amaru Shakur |
Untitled 2
With all this extra stressing the question I wonder is after death
After my last breath
When will I finally get to rest from this oppression?
They punish the people that's asking questions
And those that possess steal from the ones without possessions
The message I stress
To make you stop study your lessons
Don't settle for less
Even the genius asks his questions
Be grateful for blessings
Don't ever change, keep your essense
The power is in the people and politics we address
Always do your best
Don't let the pressure make you panic
And when you get stranded and things don't go the way you planned it
Dreaming of riches in the position of making a difference
Politicians is hypocrites
They don't want to listen
If I'm insane it's the fame
I ain't about to change
It ain't nothing like the game
It's just me against the world
Liberty Needs Glasses
excuse me but lady liberty needs glassesand so does mrs justice by her side
both the broads r blind as bats
stumbling thru the system
justice bumbed into mutulu and
trippin on geronimo pratt
but stepped right over oliver
and his crooked partner ronnie
justice stubbed her big toe on mandela
and liberty was misquoted by the indians
slavery was a learning phase
forgotten with out a verdict
while justice is on a rampage
4 endangered surviving black males
i mean really if anyone really valued life
and cared about the masses
theyd take em both 2 pen optical
and get 2 pair of glasses
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| Makavelli the Don |
In the Event of My Demise
In the event of my Demise
when my heart can beat no more
I Hope I Die For A Principle
or A Belief that I had Lived 4
I will die Before My Time
Because I feel the shadow's Depth
so much I wanted 2 accomplish
before I reached my Death
I have come 2 grips with the possibility
and wiped the last tear from My eyes
I Loved All who were Positive
In the event of my Demise
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